Not Giving Any Ef

Monday. May 14^th 2012.

It was the last day of the confirmation for the physics research practice’s reports (praktikum fisika, in bahasa). I was supposed to be worried, sweating like hell, panicking, everytime I got reminded of it. But hell I haven’t even touched the reports yet. 1 got one confirmed, but the other 4, I don’t know what they’ll be. And you know, I even got the thoughts of blaming a senior for having not returned my results for one of the report, but I quickly realize that this is just my fault basically.

Now, here I am, sitting my ass in front of my laptop while writing another 500-word text, while those reports wandering aimlessly inside my head biting every single cell of my brain and turning them into one of their minions. Damn these reports. I’m even confused why I haven’t given any efs for them.

Just like I did to mechanical drawing class (kelas gambar mesin). But for this one, I have (what I think) is a legitimate reason. In the simplest terms, the lecturer didn’t give an ef for the class, so I didn’t too. Why I say the lecturer did so? Because he rarely came to class, and even if he did, it’d just be another Mario Teguh-Session or meetings regarding pointless things, such as the installation of air conditioning unit in room 10 –which the money derives from the students- and even THAT wouldn’t be as long as 50 minutes (which is the minimum time for a class to run). Not only that I don’t give a single ef for the class, I also find it hard to respect the lecturer. Very, VERY, ef-ing hard. I have my reasons.

Anyway, I think I might try consulting the lecturer assistant whether I can still get the confirmation for my reports. I’m optimistic for 2 of them, but not very much have high hopes for the other 2. It seems just a waste, which I’ve spent my energies on them and they end up being papers scattered all over my room.

Another confusing thing. Lately, I’ve been giving not enough attention to some of my classes. The only ones that I do enjoy, are social-related and software programming. Outside of college, I enjoy my time in FLP. I’m starting to think of something. But still, I don’t know if I could change it. I sure hope so though, because if I don’t, then my parents’ sacrifices would just go down the drain.